Once upon a time

Once upon a time,

there lived a rich lady,

& a poor family ( a mother & daughter).

Both of them were neighbors.

One rainy night,

there was power failure in their housing area.

The little girl,

ran to the rich lady's house,

knocking at her wooden door.

Rich lady: Can I help you?

Little girl: Does madam has a candle?

Meanwhile,

the rich lady start wondering that,

why on earth there are still such poor family,

who can't even afford to buy a candle.

"If I say yes,

& give them some of my candles,

there will for sure going to be the second,

or maybe will keep coming to ask for more."

Rich lady: No my dear, and please go home.

The little girl then looked at her & smile. 

She then said:

 

I knew you'll say no.

That is why mummy asked me to take some candles,

over here for you.

The rich lady got shocked.

She felt so guilty,

& hugged the little girl,

and she cried.

Love is rare, 

life is strange, 

nothing lasts,

people change.

- THE END -

Hmm, sorry for crapping?

But I hope you enjoy my story.

:)

p/s: It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.

I wish

Can you stay strong
 

Can you go on
 

Kristy are you doing ok
 

A rose that won't bloom
 

Winter's kept you
 

Don't waste your whole life trying
 

To get back what was taken away

 

 

♥

 

I wish

you can play & sing this song for me

on my birthday 

that's more than enough 

 

p/s: and smile, I can see the pains from protecting me.

Thank You

Enjoyed my holiday,

spending time with you & bunch of crazy friends,

 in Genting Avana,

and I hope that's not the last time.

:)

We have lotsa fun,

spending time together.

At first,

I thought this is surely gonna be hard for me to click in,

but fortunately,

I felt so welcomed,

& comfortable.

and thank you,

for taking care of me.

You knew I'll feel uncomfortable,

for letting others to drive me up there,

 & you're willing to tell them to let you to drive,

I know you're exhausted.

I felt so surprise,
 that you were able to read my mind.

and the touches thing was,

the reason being you find excuses,

for not drinking so much,

and try to keep yourself awake,

was to protect me,

and taking care of me.

 I got shocked,

when you told them,

that I'm the closest girl friend of yours.

Every little things that you do,

it melts my heart,

& I appreciate it,

very much.

Thank you.

( then we got back from Genting around 2.30pm )

The craziest thing was,

when I got up to the condo,

and you were otw walking to your car,

I forgot to wave you good bye.

Then I rushed to the lift,

loaded with people which going to different floor,

9,7,5,2,1.

OMG!

I came out from the 5th floor,

& I ran all the way down from the stairs,

to the guard house.

Unfortunately,

you've left..

Once again,

it disappoint me,

& walked back up with tears rolling.

It's so insane for being such a fool,

and I'm not the kind of person that will do such thing,

but why am I acting like this,

without noticing it?

and the reason is you.

But still,

thank you for everything.

♥

 

p/s: Love isn't planned, it just happens.

Love Will Find A Way

As you go through life you'll see,

there is so much that we,

don't understand.

And the only thing we know,

is things don't always go,

the way we planned.

But you'll see every day,

that we'll never turn away,

when it seems all your dreams come undone.

We will stand by your side,

filled with hope and filled with pride,

we are more than we are.

If there's so much I must be,

can I still just be me,

the way I am?

Can I trust in my own heart,

or am I just one part,

of some big plan?

Even those who are gone,

are with us as we go on,

your journey has only begun.
 

Tears of pain, 

tears of joy,

one thing nothing can destroy,

is our pride, deep inside.

All the wisdom to lead,

all the courage that you need,

you will find when you see,

we are one.

 

♥

p/s: A woman knows the face of the man she loves like a sailor knows the open sea.

Results

Well,

it seems like a good start for me,

results do increased,

ever since I proceed to degree in Uni.

Basically,

I got 3A-s out of the 6 suicide subjects,

and that's seriously out of my expectation. 

I was like whoa okay.

Unfortunately I got a C.

Oh ma Goodness mama,

and that's the very 1st time I got a C in exams,

that disappoint me,

and it's really sucks.

I got a cgpa of 3.23,

for my 1st semester.

Results were out for 2nd semester yesterday,

and that is kinda upset,

I've took 4 subjects.

French, Principle of International Business, 

Cross culture Management & Emotional Intelligence.

But I managed to get a cgpa of 3.33,

well,

it do increased a little,

but I expect for more instead,

people will never get satisfied,

greedy me.

The case study for both PoIB and CcM,

was way too tough,

or should I say it's fucking hard?

it's so awful.

For all I can do is to bullshit to the max!

At least I tried?

Third semester is around the corner,

and guess what,

Imma going to take 7 subjects,

that's insane.

All the best to You & friends.

and I hope,
that I've the strength and faith,
to proceed my dreams.

Luvs.

xx

p/s: The world always looks brighter from behind a smile. ♥

Fallen

And so the story goes..

and there are something you should know.

I never tend to give you up,

and I love you always.

I do care bout you,

and the very first thing I'll do every morning,

is to glance through your profile,
to see what's going on,

whether are you okay,
  & what time you went to bed.

Sometimes I do wondering,
why am I wasting time doing so,

am such a fool,

or maybe it's already a habit?

Every little things that you do,

I care, but you don't even give a damn.

Others do asked me why would I care,
when you don't even fuckin care bout me.

am like stabbing myself with a knife,

and it broke my heart,
it's hurt.

Time has passed and things have changed,

and it seems like yesterday,

why do I feel this way,

you are no longer the old you.

and you're like trying to be someone else.

I'm sorry to say that,

you used to be so lovely and gentle,

and everything changed.

Tears drop when I'm blogging things bout you,

I said that I'd be strong,

and here's the only place,
that I would hardly express my feelings.

I always remind myself that,

not to be so hard on myself, 

because the person that I've lost,
is just a person who don't appreciate me.

and I know I do always mess things up,

sometimes you'll interpreted it wrongly,

  & you know I didn't mean it that way.

somehow I found it disappointed,

  not willing to explain since you've looked at me on that way.

I didn't mean to yell and blame everything on you,

& I know I'm not perfect too.

sometimes you thought I'm trying to find fault,

but actually I was just trying to tell you.

maybe,
I should twist and rearrange those sentences before I say it out.

Darn if I didn't find you,

you won't find me.

I miss those moments and memories,

no matter how hard and inconvenient it is,

you'll spend a little of your time, 

though it's a short greeting text,

it do made me happy.

and you even text me in Msn though I'm appearing offline.

I know I shouldn't have expected so much on you,

but I just couldn't control myself,

for being so emotional. 

There were many options for me to pick on,

and it was like 9 of them that year,

but I chose you.

Do you still think of me like I think bout you?

Though it's already end,

but I'm still glad that the one is you,

for all the joy and laughter you've brought me.

Love is blind,

and I do told myself that I should let go of it,

reason being I'm totally worn out.

One of your friend do told me that you're not worth it,

and try to get over you sooner as possible. 

and I know you always follow your so called principle.

I seriously do hate that principle of yours. 

maybe I don't know how to be people's girlfriend.

Imma so addicted and obsessed to you,

sigh.

It's been long enough,

don't know why am I still holding on.

and as you noticed that,

beside my blog I do post a small picture,

showing how long I've been falling in love with you,

& when the day you found it no longer there,

is the day I gave you up.

sorry,

for being so sentimental.

and as you said,

just go with the flow.

Luvs.

p/s: I will love you as much as I could, until I cannot love you anymore. ♥

Daddy, I'm sorry.

A little girl needs her daddy,
to love her,
to soothe her when she’s hurt,
to keep her safe from harm.

A girl needs her daddy,
to show her a man who’s good,
to help her make right choices,
as only a father could.

He’ll always be there for her,
to sustain her and to care.

  Daddy,
I hope that you can see,
how much I treasure you,
you mean everything to me.

You always seem to know when I need a smile,
especially when you haven't seen one in a while.

We seem to always be on the same page,
even though there's a big difference in our age.

Daddy,

you're the one that I need,
I would never ask for anyone new. 

You’re like the sun to me,
a sure thing, 

always there,
beaming light and warmth on my life.  

♥

I'm sorry,

that I always ignored you.

I'm sorry,

that I couldn't make you feel proud of me,

but I'll try my best dad,

I promise I will.

I'm sorry,

for not spending time together with you.

Each and everyday,
you're getting older and weaker,

and I'm enjoying my life over there,
am such an idiot.

I always thought that,

a little gift would make you happy,

that's the biggest mistake that I've ever done,

all you want is a caring and loving daughter.

Imagine 19 years of my life,
we didn't start an argument before,
not even once.

Seeing you kept coughing,

so badly for the past few weeks,

I didn't even bother to ask,
what's wrong with me?

I know I've broke your heart..

until,
I saw lotsa blood stain on your shirt,
this evening.

It tears me off dad,
it really tears me off,
and it's hurts..

please don't do that again dad,
please don't.

:'(

I'm so sorry,
for being so helpless and useless,
there's nothing I can do,
but to run to the kitchen,
to get you a bottle of water.

I can choose my friends,
I can choose my partner,
but I couldn't choose you guys.

But if I've given a chance,
you guys are still the one that I'll pick.

I'M SO SORRY DADDY,

I beg for your forgiveness,
I promise I'll be daddy's girl,

 I Love You.

Always..

p/s: I'll bring you over to Australia to have fun with me after I graduate dad. Pinky promise. ♥

Anywhere but here

A letter which you won't be reading it.

失去你，
曾经是那么的心痛。

一天比一天的过，
逐渐地过了三个月，

我也慢慢地适应了。

同样的，
想你的时间是多是少，
我不知道，
真的不知道。

每天都很努力，
很努力的，
告诉自己，
这一切都是梦，
已好快醒了。

有时候，

真的真的好想告诉你，

我心里的感受，

可是却难以表达。

有时候，

当我一个人，

默默地在伤心难过时，

却看见你在一旁，

无忧无虑的，

露出一副很无所谓的样子。

我很想，

真的很想，

你能够明白，

我的感受。

我知道，

我没资格再要求些什么，

只需求你一点点的关心，

陪我解闷；

逗我开心，

就够了。

很想告诉你，
我有多么的在乎。

每天，

都默默地等待你的信息，

期待你的来电，

始终还是让我失望。

每晚，

都会在房间里，

躺在床上，

盯着手机发呆，

反复地看着聊天记录，

默默地读回那些信息。

你轻轻地对我说，

我只是，

普通的朋友。

如果，

如果时间能重来，

那有多好。

付出的时候，

始终没结果，

其实很多事，

是你不知道的。

选择不说，
是为了让步，
也许是我小气，
也许是我自私，
选择逃避。

爱的太真，
太容易让自己牺牲，
不顾一切，
让自己满身伤痕。

假惺惺地对你微笑，
这才真的，
真正可笑。
 

但是我不愿，

放弃这里面一点点可能。

你不懂，

和你聊天，

我都会很开心。

你不懂，

每看见你和别人亲密，

我都会胡思乱想。

你不懂，

每当别人说你不好，

只告诉自己，

我喜欢就好。

你不懂，

每晚那么迟睡觉，

就只为等你一句晚安。

你不懂。

有时在想念你的时候，

眼泪也慢慢的滑落。

在流泪的每一时刻，
才发现，
其实我是那么的软弱。

也许，

 我累了。

想跟自己说声对不起，

对不起总是让自己不开心。

想跟自己说声对不起，

对不起总是莫名其妙的忧伤。

想跟自己说声对不起，

对不起很久没有好好的照顾自己。

想跟自己说声对不起，

对不起含泪微笑的时候我没有倾诉。

对不起。

 

♥

 

Don't worry & I'm always fine. 

Meanwhile for my 2011 resolutions,

 first of all is to deal with my temper and be patient,

regain what was lost and fight for things that I want.

 

跌倒了有什么关系，

还可以站起来。

 

HAPPY NEW YEAR

 

:)

p/s: no one falls in love by choice, it's by chance; and no one falls out of love by chance, it's by choice.